1. I remember when my Grammy smoked. She and I made a deal that if she quit smoking, I’d quit sucking my thumb. After she quit, she always kept a pack of cigarettes (open, the last pack she ever bought) in her freezer. When I was a teenager, I asked her about it, she said it made it so she didn’t feel like she had to buy another pack AND if she ever smoked one it would make her sicker than anything. I really wonder if that pack of cigarettes was still there when she died and they cleaned out her house.
2. Sometimes things are just fun, or cute, or silly. Not everything in life has to have a meaning or a purpose. Sometimes a toy, or a book, or a TV show, or a poem is just fun, is just for its face value. Not everything needs to be deconstructed. Especially things that children do or come up with. They do not think like adults, sometimes marrying a prince is just about “hey, this sounds like fun today right now.” Sometimes kissing your friend is just because “hey this is my friend.”
3. I painted my nails last before Christmas time, probably before Thanksgiving. Most of the nail polish has come off, chipped off, whatever, except for this one spot on my thumbnail on my left hand. I’m curious why that is the only bit left.
4. I wonder if I will ever get past being upset that my mom NEVER pushed me to succeed in anything other than academics, despite the fact that there were a lot of things I desperately wanted to do and possibly could have done well if just given the push/support and not allowed go give up the second it got hard? I got the message that only academics were important, the rest was fluff, so I went to college, law school and even got my LL.M. … and all I want to do is get back on stage.
5. I wonder if I’m going to be able to strike the right balance with my kids.
6. Why the hell is my dog so WEIRD? Both of them are weird, but he is WAY weirder than she is.
7. I miss Ace more when he’s on a rehire than when he’s just on shift. I’m not sure why. (I mean I miss him BOTH times, but it’s more apparent when he’s on a rehire.)
8. One of the skills I want my kids to leave home with is how to reheat food in an oven or pot instead of a microwave.
9. Watching T4 play Wii “Sports ‘zort” is HILARIOUS. He’s so dramatic.
10. I’m getting back on the ice….watch out, no seriously watch out, I may land on you. (I went for the recreational skates, the figure skates were too small and I didn’t want to wait another 2 weeks for them to try ordering the next size up and since I don’t HAVE to have figure skates…I went with these. We’ll see if they irritate me to the point of buying figure skates, too.)
